living within.

it seems time has been lost.
as i think about beginning my last semester of college, i find myself in awe of how quickly years, months, and days continue to pass by. so much has been had. relationships known and grown. a heart rearranged on truth. an arm broken in a place or two. tears fallen. joy embraced. its much like any other season i suppose. and yet it seems different. a transition ahead that has never been had before and will never be had in the same way again.

a move away from the familiarity in relationships as well as from this town. jobs to be found and days to be filled with hours of a career. reality as some would come to call it.

and yet i ponder at the possibility of having found a bit of reality here. a reality of love. not in a manner that love has been 'reached' or 'attained', but more so 'abided' within.

[abide::// to remain - continue - dwell - reside - continue in a particular condition - to endure - sustain - wait for - to accept]

the journey has held so much. and yet i find that i have seen a glimpse of love. hearts that have admitted to weakness and failure, allowing us to abide within love. for love to dwell in the midst of the messy. sustain in moments of frustration and question. and to let love endure through the depths of wounds.

it is only now that i've come to see how those around me have abided in love. even when i didn't recognize it. even when i thought they were to blame. moments and pages of journals spent crying, wishing i had the words to thank them now. for loving. deeply. beyond themselves.

teach me to abide that others may taste of love.