learning to play.

it doesn't seem that it has taken long to become over-whelmed once more. i didn't suspect week one would entail a large load beyond the syllabus - but homework rolls in large quantities, and suddenly i remember what these days and late nights feel like.

the past few days seem to have been a whirl-wind. to think tomorrow is thursday, makes me question what happened to tuesday and wednesday. days filled with hours of class and time spent with children.

1. taking children to and from school.
2. cleaning up vomit.
3. building towers only for the sole purpose of blowing them up.
4. packing lunches and snow pants.
5. becoming imaginary wolf hunters in order to save our imaginary sheep. we work at night and sleep during the day. always with a watchful eye of course.
6. taking children to doctors appointments.

7. participating in the 'girls club'. which really means that my nanny girls go out to eat at Carlos O'Kellys when dad is gone on business.
8. playing dinosaurs - where apparently the only objective is to eat one another.
9. pulling over to the side of the road to break up a fight between sisters in the back seat.
10. holding a little boy as he came running to me for a hug in the midst of tears.

and to wrap up the end of the day - Lindsay and i come home from Bible study to discover that she has been locked out of her bedroom. we schemed many options. picking the lock. taking a running jump at the flimsy door. knocking a hammer through it. playing monkey climb to get through the window in the back yard. and finally she ended up calling a locksmith. about 12:30 a.m. a large man, obviously disturbed from his sleep, showed up at our house. complete with a large mustache and cowboy boots. after much contemplation he had the door open. after long days, late nights, and small frustrations i discovered Lindsay's goggles. they were put to great use as we rigged up her door to prevent a recurrence of unfortunate events.

playing like a child.
feeling like a mom.
so much fun had as i realize how greatly i desire to be a mother.
so many playful and weary days to be had.

but for now - exhaustion finds me saying - goodnight world.