all that's left.

my friend sarah wrote a song this summer that just recently got recorded onto a cd.
the truth within the lyrics have become the cry of my heart in the midst of this season.

i am at my best when i am nothing
i am at my best when i've lost all control
i am at my best when i surrender
i am at my best when You're changing me

so teach me to delight in the fire
the fire that purifies me
i'm pursuing the heat of Your fire
to take all that's left of me

i heard You ask "who can I send?
who will go for Me?"
The cry of my heart is i'll go won't You send me
but i know You have to take from me

so take from me and destroy what these hands have made
i am coming to a place where all i want is all you have for me
and i know it's in my brokenness - that i can best be used by You
so break me Jesus and take all that's left of me

i am read to be broken for you Jesus
i am ready to surrender all to You
i am ready to be poured out as an offering
i am ready to surrender my all to You
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i am reading a book about compassion. it has spoken of suffering and pain as unattractive aspects to our lives that we would rather avoid. our reaction to run from what seems difficult creates a lack of genuine compassion toward others and ourselves.

'so teach me to delight in the fire
the fire that purifies me
i'm pursing the heat of Your fire
to take all that's left of me'

teach me to delight in the fire. teach me to delight in the process of being refined and purified. teach me to pursue the heat of the fire that burns what i've created and leaves only what Your hand has done over me.
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'i hear You ask "who can I send?
who will go for Me?"
the cry of my heart is i'll go won't you send me
but i know you have to take from me'

with a great passion for the people, i desire to do my student teaching in Tanzania, Africa. hesitations and the disapproval of my parents speak otherwise. i never imagined myself to say, 'i am willing to go', but it has become the cry of my heart that i do so. i know the process is not finished, and much must be taken from me.

teach me to delight in this fire. teach me to delight in the process of being refined and purified. teach me to pursue the heat of the fire that burns my own desire and leaves only what You have for me to do.


i am coming to a place where all i want is all you have for me.