landed.

graduation has come and gone. it all feels surreal and relieving.

i have landed at home. two legs and four wheels. and yet i still feel as if my heart hasn't landed among me.

time here has been filled with scheduled appointments and things to be accomplished before departing from this place once more.

dentist. chiropractor. orthodontist. hair cut. new cell phone. family shabang. all in 48 hours.

today i attempted to sort through my belongings which continue to fill tubs among tubs. everything shoved in random locations where it fit best just to haul it here.

i found my bag of shoes. and then discovered the already present mound of shoes in my closet:

59 pairs of shoes. 28 given to the homeless shelter in a near by town. and 31 packed back into my closet. was there ever a need for 59 pair? i want to be simple.

much continues to fill my time and days.
the pace which i have kept for so long beats on.
and my heart begs to settle.

finals.

finals.

they leave a distinct and remembered feeling within you.
you feel the most unmotivated you have all semester.
you're figuring what your overall course grade would be if you didn't even show up for the final.
pondering if it would be well worth it.

you see many types of people - responding similary on campus.
those walking slowly - head down - headed toward a dreaded something or other.
those running - already late - and on a mission.
those standing in the median of university avenue holding a binder.
if you don't know it by the time you get to the median buddy - you're not going to know it!

feeling a bit checked out. packed up. graduated. half-way home. carrying everything i own on my back.
that sounds easier than writing this paper and studying for yet another test right now.


this too shall pass.
good luck to you.