moving from here.

completing this semester and the short time that remains brings signs of relief ahead.
graduating in less than two weeks brings a sense of accomplishment.
purchasing a ticket to Tanzania leaves me feeling empowered.
looking forward to the abrupt changes ahead brings great excitement and anticipation.

it nearly makes me want to bust out in a cheesy, remembered chorus of the past:

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end.
And suddenly it's like we're women and men

and this is how it feels.

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change,
from whatever
We will still be, friends forever
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thank you Vitamin C.

this place will continue to hold memories and thoughts over seasons where i've been changed.
but i'm now finding myself ready to move from here.
not because i'm ensured of what's to come.
but more so the excitement that extends over the unknown.
over the paths which could be taken.

i want to step with courage.

hang on, for the end is near.

i dislike the feeling of continuing to hang on only for the sake of knowing the end is near.

your grip has grown weak.
your willingness to withstand has grown weary.
and yet here you are.
clinging because you know you've been here before.
frustrated that all else fights to loosen your firm grasp.
gripping because you believe it will indeed end.
and the pain will be washed away.

let there be hope.

random.

i've been told that randomness matters.
welcome inside my tuesday:

- i broke a computer in the schindler computer lab. even the lady sitting behind the desk with the nametag couldn't figure it out.
- i walked around campus under a broken umbrella while laughing outloud at myself.
- amy dau left a pleasantly surprising and refreshing message on my phone.
- i got to wear my pink plaid rainboots. and i loved it.
- i arrived to meeting #2 of the night to be told that my zipper was undone. props to myself after having completed meeting #1 with two guys. awesome.
- i got to hold a crying little girl and assure her everything was going to be ok.
- i ran into a friend i haven't seen all semester in a computer lab i never enter - she handed me a really great card she made and wrote me last week. i smiled.
- i made the following list in class::

things i've come to discover while attending uni:
- i've never written more unnecessary documents about everyday human interactions than in my four years here.
- i find it hard to believe that an educated architect would design a building like the schindler education system. it's a spacecraft.
- my degree could have possibly been earned on my ability to create fluff and insert educational lingo in all the correct locations.

things i still don't understand after attending uni:
- WHY is there a large gust of wind ALWAYS present in the lang tunnel?
- why do you have to go up the stairs to go down the stairs in the union? [check it out.]


perhaps random does matter.
those moments brought me through today.